Testimonies_Yolanda_ Nov 2008 13:07:54 -0500

Prior to going to Acquire the legacy I felt like my marriage was over.  I felt like I had no one, that the man that i was married too was not the same person i had hoped to share my many years with.  He had broken my heart too many times and I didn't want to continue to give him my heart.  I was in a state of depression and had no trust.  I didn't know in which direction to go.  I cried for days asking God what to do?  The thought of living with someone that i could not trust was unbearable.  I had given him my heart over and over just to have him lie.  I knew that he understood that I was done and that I felt like I lost my best friend.  I couldn't even look at him or be near him.  I felt awkward around him like we didn't belong together.  I had no energy to seek outside help so instead he asked if he could call someone.  I agreed and gave him some phone numbers to call and that is when we were led to Acquire the Legacy.  I remember walking in and not knowing what to expect and not even caring at that point.  All I could do was listen.  My husband did most of the talking along with the counselor.  I had no words, no emotions; I had mentally separated myself from the situation because I thought there was no hope.  I wouldn't even smile or show any reactions.  As I sat there questioning everything in my mind I was able to hear the accountability that was expected from my husband.  The boldness, discernment and words that Dorothy used when speaking with my husband gave me a sense of hope.  It Let me know that we weren't there to play games it was a time to be serious or lose it all.  Dorothy was able to identify how I felt without me having to speak since I was unable too.   She was able to show him the reality of my pain.  For once my husband was stunned and couldn't explain himself out of a situation (at least that's how I saw it and needed to see it).  It has now been about three months and thankfully to the Lord and this ministry I can say that I'm not where I was.  Having Acquire the legacy as a place of accountability has really helped us. 

Meeting with Dorothy weekly and receiving not only therapy but being ministered too has invoked newness in our relationship.  It's neat to know that we have someone in our corner advocating for our marriage.  That we are not alone!  Healing and forgiveness has been a part of my life.  I still do get emotionally attacked with thoughts of insecurity but the difference is that i don't have to take ownership of those feelings and I'm open to discuss them with my husband.  Our communication has improved.  We're now laughing, joking and playing together which was something I missed.  I no longer see my husband as my enemy.  Like Dorothy says I’m his gem and he knows it.  We've been taught many things that we have to apply.  We can be given the tools but if we don't apply them, then we're the ones losing out.  Right now we have to be more active on applying what we've been educated with.  We're going through a new journey and thank God that he placed Acquire the legacy in our path.  I can honestly say that I love my husband so much; well I always have but always wondered if he felt the same about me.  Now I  know he does, sometimes I still look back and get scared of those past feelings and where we were at, but that also makes me thank God even more for taking us out of there.  Also making me realize that I can't stop praying and seeking the Lord because everything feels fine because that's when the devil enters full force.  We're definitely not where God wants us to be but that's our own disobedience.  We need more prayer time with God and each other which is something Dorothy emphasizes.  I definitely miss my worship time with the Lord and know that I have always gotten my strength from it and this is another area that Dorothy has been dealing with me in.   Dorothy doesn't hold punches but takes us full force where we should be.  I'm grateful to God for placing her and her husband in our lives.  There a wise couple that I enjoy listening too and having in our lives.  I pray that one day I can be as effective in someone else's life as they have been to ours. 

Yolanda